-Edit: This post was typed out in Sept 2016 and it's already the August 2017


This sounds like a long overdue post since the last time I went for a trip with G to Penang was WAY back in 2012 or was it 2013. (See, it has been so long that I don't even remember, but I do remember a draft about it chucked somewhere in midst of all the drafts that I have, which reminds that I need to clean up that too.)

If you've kept up with my post on Instagram, which is mainly the most updated of my ever thinning social life, you'll know that G and I are in a LDR and it hadn't been easy. Absence makes the heart go fonder, that's true but they didn't say that it includes the whole 'Wish you were here when I need a shoulder or a hug' along the lines. It does make me appreciate every single conversation or time I have with her. Of course also when I get to meet her, every single problem seem so far away. This is supposed to a post on the weekend trip I had with her when we met halfway, her from Penang and me driving from KL. To meet in my hometown, Ipoh!

This trip was also another overdue trip that we planned but because we needed an excuse to see each other, we made this happen finally. Haha! Driving all the way down to Penang (straight 4hours drive) is such a pain in the ass, literally. But I trained my endurance, from not being able to drive for 2 hours straight., I made it to 4.5 hours!

Being the festival food freak that I recently admitted myself am, I had this strong urge to make it back to Ipoh on Mooncake Festival, even though I reached home at 11pm but still, an hour before the festival ends. I had my first slice of mooncake when I got home. (: Ah, home.

G drove from Penang the next day and she was just an hour too late, if not we could have grabbed breakfast together. But oh well, who would have thought my parents decided to take the day off and wake me up at 8am to go have breakfast with them. But family time is GOLD. Never gets tired of the aunties and uncles asking which daughter I am, the eldest or the second and ask about my siblings. Quite funny if you ask me.

Back to the main topic, which are mostly pictures but they speak a thousand words for me. I know I can write a gazillion descriptive paragraphs for each picture but I would bore you guys, so, picture time!

Day #1


Had brunch at Sun Yeong Wai, which I haven't been to for almost 10 years.

Got home, rest a bit because I woke up too early and because G  was tired from the driving.

Then we headed out to good ol' Oldtown of Ipoh.
Drove around to find Parking and found a secluded one that only a local would know (I'm not bragging but I'm lucky I worked nearby the parking that I know it existed.) then we walked over to Concubine Lane. So the few listed places are actually places that I owed G the last time she was here and also a few places made famous by the power of THE Social Media. LOL.

Kong Heng Square
Tan Kee Klang Bak Kut Teh
Ipoh Kinta Riverfront

It was also my first time playing Pokemon GO and it was only for one night. Hahaha. Thanks love for lending me your phone and making sure I don't get run over by cars.

Day #2

Someone discovered that her so called acidocis a.k.a heaty symptoms turned out to be the sudden spurt of one of her wisdom tooth. So it was a very sad thing but I won't let it spoil our weekend trip. Haha. So we went to:

Qing Xin Ling Cultural Village (which was located 5mins away from my place)
Ipoh Parade
Food at Sushi Zanmai

Very casually called home to ask if they wanted any food but then Daddy said Mummy made food, ergo, we went back and still had dinner, second round! Mummy made prawn!! More like I made it because I got back just in time for the cooking process of the prawns.

Tong Shui Kai (this is the super long overdue place I promised her from years back but didn't get to go because of the timing but now, I am so dragging her there) And got into 'discussion' on Ai Yu Ice and Wan Tao Long. 

Day #3

We both planned to wake up early to drive back but because someone had a slight fever, she woke up a bit later and we packed to depart back to Penang and KL. Just getting into two different cars to go to the same highway made me feel so sad that we're so far apart but it is a learning process and I'll have to give credit that it is letting us learn to grow up. It's not like I like it but it's a good thing. Learning to grow up never gets old.

In conclusion, I feel like I've achieved so much this year:
- I learned to live alone ALL over again (this time in KL)
- I learned to drive around such a city, even though quite dependent on Google Maps, except Bangsar
- I learned to make good use of my money to survive for one month
- I can drive up to such long hours
- I reconnected with some of my old friends
- I have my first goal in life

And the pictures of Gurney are because I joined the gym (refer to first Gurney picture up there) and that's the view I get every morning while running on the treadmill. So healthy of me but it was mainly because my retail job was just in the mall and it was convenient and I might as well be able to strike of something from my resolution since so many years back. Haha. I'd gladly go to gym here once I've settled everything in terms of my financial management and all because the gym here is more pricey and to need to drive there is quite a hassle. Hmmmm. I'll need to reconsider. Hmmmm.

It's been a while since I've been back, I think I owe it to myself to have this little balance in my life to express what have been lingering in my mind but I've found no time or person to tell to or just, not yet.

However, I've relocated to Kuala Lumpur, from one city to another, 3 states now hold a place I call home. But it is still too soon for me to call KL my home, I still consider it a hostel because it has only been, approaching 4 months since I moved here.

Relocating sucks, big time, but it also means exposure. Being exposed to new things, new environment and all that new drill thing. Learning to appreciate everything, I'd say, this is a big step forward in my career and also big step towards a better future.

Being far from home, 2 hours to one, an additional of another 2 more hours to another, makes me realize and yearn for one thing; holidays. I didn't get the privilege of getting weekends and public holidays off during my retail work days but now I do. So I look forward to long weekends, cheap flights or any sort of opportunity to escape the big city and to the vicinity of my loved ones; in 2 different states. Of course, I never forget to enjoy the moment I'm here in KL. ;)

G told me I should consider blogging about fashion, lifestyles and all that. I'm considering..because being able to write, snap and design does not mean I have to blog about fashion, right? And I don't have my personal photographer here for my OOTD shots. Heh.

However, I'll just let the pictures talk, a few of my favorite shots from the time I went on hiatus, to this date.

Pictures from 2nd June 2015 until 24th July 2016.

Hmm, I think I should work on the tabs on my blog with the links to the social medias I'm on. 

So the true meaning behind this is very abstract and only people with the experience would have a true input to its meaning and truth to be told; it's really confusing.

But I guess, this video explains it all.


Might just enjoy as it is and think in other people's shoes once in a while, do some real thinking and have some concern for other people as well as keeping your blood pressure at where it is supposed to be at. Lol.

I'm turning twenty one this year and even being invited to a birthday dinner to celebrate a friend's twenty first birthday made me a nervous wreck. Honestly speaking, unless you have a figure of a model or a perfect M sized fixed, the whole jiggly 'fashion-designers-have-no-worries-dressing-themselves', you'd have a problem.

But why not make my own?

I had that thought but then, I had only three days and already one of the three is planned to be spent to look for a gift for the birthday boy. Plus, I guess I'm not the typical shopping kind of girl, I'm the type to curl in bed, grab a book and  hot cocoa and indulge myself away in a dreamy weekend or any given spare time from studies or assignments. When my flatmate decided to go splurge at H&M, I tagged along to hunt for a dress.


  (Pictures here are taken during my slimmest month of my entire life, no, no camera tricks or editing.)

These are some of the questions from my ask.fm page.. Some questions are all the way back from a year ago.

People never thought I could cry.

No one knew I could bawl my eyes out.

Because to them, I am the Penny who has inks and piercings no one dared to approach and I was never the one to fall down and bruise my knees.

Because to them.. I was always the one they could confide in and never break a sweat if the same thing ever happen to me.

Because to them, Penny is a tough girl who only gets mad when she didn't get enough sleep and would protect people she knows no matter what.

Penny is a friend's 'knight in shining armor'.

Penny never has problems.

Penny this.

Penny that.

It's a few more days from a new year, 2014.
I won't be doing any crappy resolution which I will just end up piling up with the rest of the things I would surely procrastinate over doing.

Instead, I'll be going a full reflection on my life until this point of moment.

I will not lie and say that I was never naive nor filled with magical fairy dusts that buys me fantasies that things will always be sparkly and mean people only exists on the telly.

Okay maybe the magical fairy dust is a little too not me, I just never thought people could have that many faces okay. (lol)

& now, going through works and college and staying with people who ain't family, I learned so many things..

And even though it's painful, but only during the darkest moment you get to see who will give you a hand. If we're not too clouded by the pain, you'll see who is pretending to lend you hand.


I learned so many things..

So many things has awakened me..So many things has awakened me from this deep sleep..

People try to hurt me with words and lies, bring me down and sink me deeper.

I thought I was going to sink.. it did hurt but the trust has brought me a shield.. A protective shield that will never go away.

I know who is real, who isn't.. okay maybe not yet in the state that I know who is real but at least I can confirm who is really fake.

I learn that people has many faces, some with really mean bitchy faces that goes around hurting people.

I also learned that trust comes to build after meeting challenges..


One thing that made me realize I was always doing wrong was, letting my anger cloud my judgement.. I thought I was good at controlling this, but turned out I never was. But now, from leashing out, I can actually sit down for a drink with anger before making any decisions. Weighing things from their pros and cons.

Yours Truly has grown up, it's about time isn't it?

Yours Truly has awakened from a long nightmare of anger and in denial.

Not everyone is almighty, even with the greatest plan there's a loophole.

I learned to appreciate every one** even if they have pissed me off really badly before because every one has beauty but not everyone sees it.

**But backstabbing people who try to hurt people I love, or hurt me and try to get my pity. That's doing too much. Maybe one day I can forgive that person but not now. Not next year. That person has done too much.

I feel more sane, more confident, more right even making decisions now.

Even found the need and time to sit down and get things straight every now and then, to think of my day or week. Or even think for myself and people whom I love around me..

Some people find me staring into space, okay, maybe Biscuits sees a lot of that in me but during that moment, things run wild like crazy in my mind.

Things in my life, gems and loves.

And all the near death moments I went through within these few weeks got me thinking really deep..
So deep even at a small possibility of leaving brings me into a sobbing fit..

Wiping away the in-deniability and blurred thoughts, I made up my mind to wake up.

To wake up from the old me and become a new me, though cliche, new me new year.

Hopefully, waking up now, isn't too late.