And the pictures of Gurney are because I joined the gym (refer to first Gurney picture up there) and that's the view I get every morning while running on the treadmill. So healthy of me but it was mainly because my retail job was just in the mall and it was convenient and I might as well be able to strike of something from my resolution since so many years back. Haha. I'd gladly go to gym here once I've settled everything in terms of my financial management and all because the gym here is more pricey and to need to drive there is quite a hassle. Hmmmm. I'll need to reconsider. Hmmmm.

It's been a while since I've been back, I think I owe it to myself to have this little balance in my life to express what have been lingering in my mind but I've found no time or person to tell to or just, not yet.

However, I've relocated to Kuala Lumpur, from one city to another, 3 states now hold a place I call home. But it is still too soon for me to call KL my home, I still consider it a hostel because it has only been, approaching 4 months since I moved here.

Relocating sucks, big time, but it also means exposure. Being exposed to new things, new environment and all that new drill thing. Learning to appreciate everything, I'd say, this is a big step forward in my career and also big step towards a better future.

Being far from home, 2 hours to one, an additional of another 2 more hours to another, makes me realize and yearn for one thing; holidays. I didn't get the privilege of getting weekends and public holidays off during my retail work days but now I do. So I look forward to long weekends, cheap flights or any sort of opportunity to escape the big city and to the vicinity of my loved ones; in 2 different states. Of course, I never forget to enjoy the moment I'm here in KL. ;)

G told me I should consider blogging about fashion, lifestyles and all that. I'm considering..because being able to write, snap and design does not mean I have to blog about fashion, right? And I don't have my personal photographer here for my OOTD shots. Heh.

However, I'll just let the pictures talk, a few of my favorite shots from the time I went on hiatus, to this date.

Pictures from 2nd June 2015 until 24th July 2016.

Hmm, I think I should work on the tabs on my blog with the links to the social medias I'm on. 

Hey guys, I guess I've been gone for quite some time, I left off at Sya's wedding reception didn't I? I guess I'll just give you guys a quick update on my year so far. (:

It's already almost the end of August, which would've been my graduation showcase but due to some reasons, I wasn't able to graduate. Postponing my invitations to next year okay. Keep the anticipation going.

Pictures are not in order, I'll elaborate more in each post soon

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These are some of the questions from my ask.fm page.. Some questions are all the way back from a year ago.

if I was to leave this world and never come back..

That was the darkest part of me.I never wanted to let out.But the darkness is overwhelming me.Taking over me.Taking a toll on me.Killing me softly.

What takes for someone like me, to be so oblivious, so blind, so dumb to not see these things?

It's already the 13th day of twenty-thirteen yet I haven't produce a good post. But to make up to my procrastination I shall give you my resolution which is also a way to conjure what my feelings were as of the twelve of this month of this year.

I'll make this look like a 2013 Resolution where basically, a resolution is a public confession of your weaknesses and how you wish that in the new year, you can improve them!

RESOLUTION 2013:
1) Be a less worrywart.
2) Practice more moderation.
3) Have more patience.
4) Never ignore an advice.
5) Analyze things before pinning a conclusion to it.
6) Respect people's personal space.
7) Cry less.
8) Blog more.
9) Procrastinate less.
10) Never complain.
11) Remember remember remember.
12) Keep the love strong.
13) Be more creative.
14) Research more.
15) Try the best in every thing.
16) Keep fit & lose more weight.
17) Appreciate my beautiful people.

People,
I think I have issues. Crazy temper issues.
I get really grumpy or pissy really easily and it's annoying myself, literally,
Have you been annoyed at yourself for being angry all the time?
And when you have PMS; that's why people decide to mess with you, bite 'em bitches. (LOL)
After a talk with my mom and love, I decided, I'll tone my anger down.
I can't get rid of them completely, they are what keeping me grounded and strong.
I'll ignore people with meaningless thoughts, play along with people who play, act with them actors & actresses and do what I'm supposed to do: study!

After tonight; I think I have to dedicate to my family & love a tattoo and one for myself. But of what, I don't know yet. These are a few ideas of placements. 

I realized every time I blog, it's a post on my artworks of the semester. I have so much more to blog about but there isn't enough time. And another reason is that I can't organize all the pictures straight so I lack the motivation. There goes.

Hopefully I will get more motivated and post about My Boo's Trip to Ipoh, The Story Behind the Dragon Phoenix Dress, My Second Home and Throughout the Entire Certificate.

I have my ups and downs like many other people.
Even worse when my hormones go crazy with the month, but just bear with it.
I may have negative thoughts when my whole turbulence wave comes but at least they are only thoughts with no action put to it. It's just how I wish to express my hatred and my disagreement to the situation.
I know there's always a silver lining around every fluffy clouds in the world but with my choice, I'd like to choose my own path, and have my own chances.
Other people's failure doesn't mean it'll be the same for me. Maybe the possibilities of falling into the same down pit category is big because it's a majority factor but I believe I am special.
Everyone is special in their own way so am I.
I do not end up like other people out on the streets if I make myself better, if I make that choice and fall on my own.

I get back up.

Let me give it a try, give me a chance.
Don't judge me and try to put others' shadow in my reflection.
I am me, they are them.
Nothing ends the same if you don't let them to.

I believe in myself and as who I've believed in for so many years, I hope you give me some trust too.

Thanks.

Sometimes, problems come up and just so coincidentally, they happen to happen when you're in your moody days.
You feel like the world just collapsed on you, the whole world's burden on your shoulders.
It feels hard to breathe, it's hard to even look through the tear blinded eyes.
Do what you want, eat what you want or simply do nothing. Just give yourself a moment.
Free your mind, blast some music or just let the tears run.
Remember, life is too short to hold grudges for too long or to put a pause to.

SNEAK PEEK :)